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A Quarterly Journal
Jeffrey Woodward, Founder & Owner
Ray Rasmussen, General Editor

Volume 11, Number 1, March 2017


Alexander Jankiewicz
Fulda, Hesse, Germany


It's funny how things slow down when you're in pain. I'm on my way to the dentist with a piercing toothache when, for some strange reason, I think of a girl that I once loved. She didn't know it. I never had the courage to tell her. I can see the irony in it, on my way to a dentist to get rid of pain. "Courage," I think, "Courage."

I try not to let my phobia of dentists get the better of me. It would be pointless since there's no alternative. While in the waiting room, I notice a kid chatting away with all smiles. Salt in an open wound.

I escape back to my younger days. A youthful crush. "Too good for me," I remember thinking. I can see her face as clear as day. Why, I wonder, didn't I ever tell her? "The pain," I answer. "The fear of pain."

"And where are you now?" I ask myself.

in a closet
an old yearbook
gathers dust



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